FAITH

So what is faith?
Faith is the confident belief or trust in the truth or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.

What about trust?
As with trust, faith involves a concept of future events or outcomes, and is used conversely for a belief "not resting on logical proof or material evidence."

Sometimes I really kind of don’t know what to do. I saw others seek their God’s guide for a solution and they looks happy with the outcome but me … Yeah. I am Christian, I went for a bible class and active in the fellowship during my teenage and now my faith in Him is getting fade. I’m not sure why but I guess that it is because of the difficulties that I had in my life like will never end. Why is it very difficult for me to get something that I dream of? I pray a lot before, everything I thank Him and even now I do thank Him. I notice when Easter Day or Palm Sunday before is but now I seem like I never realize that day has passed. That's how much I left Him behind. Even my spirit to pray to Him everyday becomes less. I kind like give up in Him. Sometimes He makes me think like if He really exist, why don’t He help me? Even a tiny help, a tiny light that He show to me to get out from the darkness, I really appreciate it.

Some said, maybe I’m not a pure Christian that’s why I think like this. What is that?